About jenflem

I’m a girl in a city. I grew up in Ft. Lauderdale, FL, and lived in Louisville, KY, New Orleans, LA and now Memphis, TN. Cities have always attracted me. I’m a pastor’s wife and I enjoy serving alongside my husband, Travis, in local church ministry. I’m a music teacher and worship leader and I love to teach and disciple women in God’s Word. My hobbies include writing, reading good books, playing my guitar, singing, and homemaking (I guess that’s a hobby as well as a vocation). Christ is my identity and satisfaction- I want to be just like Him.

A Fun and Easy Summer Fruit Recipe

Peaches and Blueberries Delight

Okay, so this is a little concoction I came up with to use up some fruit that I had in the fridge.  The only problem I had was deciding whether or not this was a side dish or a dessert.  What I do know is that it tasted refreshingly delish!

Ingredients:

4-5 fresh peaches

1 pint fresh blueberries

water

sugar

cinnamon

Directions:

1. Slice peaches

2. Pour sliced peaches and blueberries in bowl.

3.  Make simple syrup (1 part water, and 1 part sugar), and pour over fruit.

4.  Liberally sprinkle cinnamon over fruit.

5.  Eat and enjoy!

May Memories

This month has flown, and I cannot believe that summer is upon us.  I want to highlight some of the May happenings around the Fleming household, which you will see made this month busy and very special.

 

My sweet “Kare Bear” turned two on May 6!

 

We dedicated Analise before our church family on May 6 as well!


 

I turned a year older on May 27th, and Kara helped me blow out the candles.

 

Am I For My Husband?

Before you read my post, read this post by Rick Thomas: “Does Your Husband Know You Are For Him?

I stink at being a godly wife.  There, I said it.  This is not some new or startling revelation for me.  In fact, I even expressed this to Travis one evening recently.  My bent towards selfishness and disrespect goes way back to the Fall, and oftentimes the demands and expectations I place on my husband are as if he isn’t affected by the Fall as well.  I like what Thomas wrote in his article, “Nothing will test a woman in the practical out-working of the Gospel than a wife who loves her man, especially when he is undeserving of that love. I mean, when he is acting like a jerk.”

Recently, I went through a test where the Lord through His Spirit was having me ask myself if I am really for my husband.  If you were to ask me this I would say, “Duh!  Of course!  I married the guy for goodness sake.  You know, till death do us part and all that…”  What the Lord did was not have me theorize my heart for Travis, but actually examine my heart for Travis, and it was found to be in some ways disloyal.

It was not that my heart was for another man, but that it was not for my man enough, even though it was only for a moment.  Two words in Ephesians 5 that describe how a wife is to be towards her husband put simply are “submit” and “respect.”  Now, without going through an exhaustive defense as to why this is so, let us be satisfied with the reality that the Bible says it, God commands it, so enough said.  As an aside, the responsibilities and expectations that God lays out for the husband are more weighty than what He outlines for the wife, but that is for another post for another day.

When I ask myself, “Am I for my husband?” I am asking a question regarding my respect for him.  I like what Thomas says regarding this, “Does your husband have…confidence in your affection for him? Have you been so affected by the Gospel that you’re pouring it out on the person God gave you until death causes you guys to part?”

So this recent test from the Lord regarding my devotion and loyalty to Travis scared me, because I failed it.  Without going into details I will say this: Ladies, there will be times in our marriages whether from the Lord or temptations from Satan himself when we will decide to be for or against our husbands.  Unless he is found in sin and needs to be called to repentance, we must remain loyal to him.  Yes, he is imperfect and fallen like us, and he will not always make the best choices, but we must trust the Lord with him.  Did you catch that?  Trust the LORD with him.  It goes back to headship.  God has designed marriage with an authority structure, not in value, but in position.

How do we trust God with our husbands?  I am learning to pray for my husband.  As I do this I find that my confidence in him grows, because my faith in my God grows as I pray for my husband.  This has been a profound lesson for me.

Wives, our husbands need our confidence, loyalty, respect, and affection even when they don’t deserve it.  Marriage was designed to be a declaration of the gospel, not a struggle of selfish wills.  Christ loved us and gave Himself up for us even when we didn’t deserve it.  How much more should we as two sinners love and give ourselves up for each other?  And ladies, this is not contingent upon how our husbands are giving themselves up for us.  Did you catch that?  If that were the case then we wouldn’t be living out the gospel in our marriages at all.

So, I stink at being a wife, and you probably do too, but there is grace in the gospel for us as wives.  The Lord is our Helper and He will enable us to be the wives that He intends for us to be for our husbands.  When we ask, “Am I for my husband?” we must first ask, “Am I for my Lord?”

Music Monday

Today’s post is all about music.  Here are some albums I am currently enjoying:

The Lumineers- This is a fun folk band that Kara likes to dance to.  If you like Mumford & Sons or The Avett Brothers then you will probably like these guys.

Gotye, Making Mirrors- I love this guy’s voice.  He has a clean tone with a beautiful resonance.  You’ll do a double take (listen) at times when you listen to him, because you’ll think you’re listening to the Police.  Interesting and unique band out of Australia.

Of Monsters and Men, My Head is An Animal- This band out of Iceland has a great sound.  This album is $5, and today is the last day that you can get it at that price on Amazon.  Hurry!  So good.

Sovereign Grace, From Age to Age- I really appreciate the thoughtful text and beautiful music written by these folks.  Also, Brooks Ritter (from Sojourn Music) serves as a guest singer on this album, which is an added bonus.  Love this album!  I’ve been enjoying it in the mornings as I get ready for the day.

Cat Killer

A little over four years ago I adopted a month-old kitten named “Melanie.”  I picked her because she was rather calm and oh so cute.  I took her home and began my journey as a cat owner.  I also took the liberty to rename her “Minksy” because her soft gray fur reminded me of a mink coat, and the name “Melanie” just didn’t fit her.

About a year later I married Travis, and he assumed the responsibility to become  Minksy’s daddy.  He tolerated her and eventually grew to like her even.  During my pregnancies Travis had to change the litter box, which he did without complaining.  When we lived in New Orleans there was a time when we left for a week to visit family in the summer.  In order to save on our power bill Travis turned the AC off.  When we got home the inside temp. was 96 degrees.  Minksy survived, but I wasn’t too happy about almost losing my cat to heat stroke.

Fast forward to Memphis.  We came to realize that Minksy was not a fan of other felines.  Dogs, birds, squirrels, and children are okay, but cats?  In Minksy’s eyes other cats were Al Qaeda in fur.  There are a lot of stray cats in our neighborhood, and everytime one would come to our door step, the devil himself would enter little Minksy’s body and possess her  to where she would  shrill and shriek while physically lunging at the door to attack the trespassing cat.

When this first started happening, I would just wait until the stray left our porch.  Minksy would eventually calm down.  Sometimes though, Minksy would be overcome with aggression that she would lunge at me.  I would tell her, “No, Minksy!” and then leave the room until she calmed down.

Minksy never physically attacked me, but I wasn’t completely sure that one day she would snap and become aggressive with me, or worse with my children.

Well, that day came unfortunately and we just had enough with our crazy cat.  I was on the couch nursing Analise and  a cat came to our door and the devil entered Minksy again for the umpteenth time.  Minksy lunged at me and Analise while swatting with her paw, claws and all.  She didn’t get us because I got up faster than lightening.  That was it.  Minksy had to go.

I called the Humane Society, but they said that they are not accepting cats or dogs.  Then I called our local cat adoption agency called House of Mews.  The lady on the other line said that they are not accepting cats either, and that all of the other pet adoption agencies are not accepting cats right now.  I said, “Well, I would keep Minksy if she wasn’t aggressive.”  I continued saying how I love my cat, but that I love my kids more.  This crazy cat lady then responded with, “We don’t love kids more, we love them differently.”  I rolled my eyes and closed the conversation.

I was left with three options.  1.  Keep Minksy.  This would not work, and I DO LOVE MY KIDS MORE than that furball.  2.  Take Minksy to the Pound.  Even though I love my kids more than my cat I still believe in the humane treatment of animals, and I just couldn’t send Minksy to a life in an ill-fitting cage, malnourished, and mistreated.  3.  Kill Minksy.  This really became my only option- to put my crazy cat to sleep.  I called our vet, and even she agreed that this would be the best option since Minksy was being aggressive.  Even the vet had to put her dog down recently for being aggressive.  It became clear to me what the necessary, although sad, solution to this situation had to be.

In December of 2011, Minksy was dropped off at Central Animal Hospital  to be put to sleep.  I didn’t even stay in the room with her when they injected her because it would have been too hard.  Kara was at our church’s daycare for the day, and Analise was with me.  I signed some papers, paid a fee, and was told that Minksy’s ashes would be dispersed at Shelby Farms.  I thought, “Gross.”  I left the hospital, got in my van, and drove off both a little sad, but also relieved.  I know that my kids are safe from cat attacks, and I know that Minksy had four happy years with me.

All in all, I have moved on.  Kara?  Well, she mentions Minksy almost everyday.  When she sees a cat or a picture of a cat, she will often say “Minksy!”  Sometimes she’ll say “cat” or “meow,” but usually she will associate the cat to Minksy.  Pitiful.  She also says, “Minksy, bye-bye.”  This has been going on for five months now, and I keep thinking that she’ll get over our now dead cat.  At some point I’m going to have to break the news to Kara that Minksy is now sprinkled over Shelby Farms, and it’s my fault.

If you are a cat lover, I apologize for this horror story.  If you do not like cats, you’re welcome.   The point of this post is to simply say, “Yes, I am a cat killer not by desire, but by necessity.”  Judge me if you’d like, but at least my kids are safe and I do love them MORE.

It’s a Zoo Out There!

We have been having some gorgeous days this spring here in Memphis, and all Kara wants to do is be outside.  I took the girls to the zoo this morning to pay a visit to our local animal neighbors.

The sea lions were her favorite friends, today.

Kara wanted to go play with the elephants.

We even managed to sneak in a little playtime.

It was a good day!

Life is Messy

Today was the day.  I knew that it was bound to happen, and in some way I believe this to be a rite of passage for both toddler and parent- that is, crayon on the walls.  Yes, folks, today was the day Kara decided to express her artistic side with a black Crayola on not just one wall, but on five walls in our house.  The good news is that with a Google search, a hair dryer, and some dish soap, the crayon markings are easily removed.  The bad news is that this will not be the last time “Picasso Kara” will scribble her masterpieces onto the walls of our house.

As I sat on the floor scrubbing away, I was reminded of the reality that this will not be the last (nor was it the first) mess that I will have to clean up.  I am in no way a neat freak, but I do like an orderly house (by order I mean no broken glass is left on the floor and nothing is on fire).  When I do pick up the house, my family is able to enjoy a somewhat tidy home.  The ironic thing is that it never fails to have an unexpected guest come over and my house is in shambles.  I guess this is something the Lord uses in my life to help me “keep it real” when I fight against that to appear “together.”  This happened today, actually.

I was cooking dinner, Kara was coloring in her coloring books (or so I thought) on the dining room table, and Analise was taking a nap.  After I put dinner in the oven I glanced in our dining room, and Kara was still coloring away while also playing with her plastic Easter eggs that eventually rolled onto the floor.  I went back into the kitchen to check on dinner, and several minutes later Kara followed me and walked into the laundry room, which is adjacent to our kitchen.  I’m busy chopping up some veggies when I hear, “Mommy, I color on wall.”  I heard wall first in my head, and then color, and then I walked into the laundry room to see Kara on top of a pile of clothes pointing to her “masterpiece”- a black scribble on the laundry room wall.  I couldn’t find the crayon, though.  So, I quickly told her, “No.  Kara we do not color on walls.  We only color on paper.”  My gut told me to go back into the dining room.  Gulp.  Yes, there was a 3 foot tall line drawn across 3 walls in our dining room, and on one wall in our breakfast nook.  I eventually found the crayon and put it back with the rest of the crayons.

Travis came home shortly after this little event to tell me that someone was on his way over to drop something off.  Hopefully, this person won’t see the crayon on the walls, or the plastic Easter eggs, or construction paper on the floor.  Travis was actually calm about the whole ordeal (that is the crayon on his professionally painted walls), and he knew Kara was bound to express herself in this way.  I thought to myself that of course someone would come over after this messy event.  Well, we did tidy up a bit- everything except for Kara’s Crayola creations.  I was reminded though that life is messy and to try and hide that reality is a lie.  Life with a toddler is especially messy, and to try and hide that is IMPOSSIBLE!

So, today was a reality check for me.  I do not have it all together, and that is okay.  Pretending that I do is not okay.  I think this applies to much more than housekeeping.  Life is messy and everything does not always come together in a neat and clean package with a bow on top.  There is much room for grace, and grace is needed.  I love how James reminds us of our Lord, “He gives us more grace” (James 4:6).  Christ went to the cross to clean up my mess so to speak.  His perfection replaced my imperfection.  I now look to Him for my value, worth, and esteem.  Sometimes it takes a little thing to remind me of this truth- something as little as a crayon.

Spring Has Sprung

Our wisteria has come in bloom on the trellis on the side of our porch.  It is absolutely breathtaking.

“Blessed be the name of God forever and ever, to whom belong wisdom and might.  He changes times and seasons…” Daniel 2:20-21a